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Thursday, October 29, 2009

Slacking before TKD Training: 29th October 2009

Hihi! Sorry if I haven't been updating much... XP

It's mainly because my lessons all start early in the morning so I get tired kinda easy especially after TKD (Tae Kwon Do) trainings. Hehes, but I am still hyper all the same or at the very least I try to be? Well, lessons are going great though I am not very artistically talented so maybe it'll take a while before I can slowly improve right?

Anyways, school's fun! I have great friends and am enjoying studying though some of the lessons can be rather dry. Plus, I have great cca peeps too! ^.^ HAHAS! But somehow I can't help but to get a little emo nowadays.... No worries! Nothing serious, it's just that I tend to let my mind wander when I am on the way home but that happens only when I have nothing to do... XP But, seriously I AM FINE! Compared to others, my troubles or so called problems are actually pretty small so I'll rather help others. I mean, that's the best that I can do right? >.<

Recently, I realised that I LOVE life. I love my everyday with everyone I have met until this point and I am quite contented but along with life also comes its ups-and-downs. But I always get through them somehow so no problem. However, I can't help getting frustrated with myself for thinking whether I really am okay the way I am. To be honest, I always thought that I had a lot of bad traits and before I knew it, I was on a mission to improve on myself. That started like four to five years back. Even now, though I have changed, I still think that maybe the me now is sometimes not strong enough or no reliable enough. I know such thoughts are like BAD but then I can't help it.

The only time when I actually believe I might be able to do something would probably be in TKD. Reason? That's easy, it's not stressful, I totally let all of my kept emotions out and feel much better. Plus, for TKD alone do I dare to believe. =)

"I never dared believe in fantasy, for I live in reality. In reality, you have to strive for what you want but even so, sometimes, you won't always succeed." I still think that but I WILL NEVER give up before trying and even if I fail after that, I will try again and again to see how far I can go or if I can, how I would succeed.

I used to believe in fantasies but I can't seem to bring myself to do so anymore these days... I wonder if I would ever be that naive again?

Okays, I think that's enough blabbering for now.... Three more hours to training!

Abi
P.S
I AM NOT EMOING!